When you can’t make the changes you really want, you may be stuck. That is, you may be resisting your own will because the force of that will resembles the force of the will of someone who over-controlled you in the past.
Here are four steps to get unstuck:
Get clear about what you really want: to eat less, to stop shopping so much, to be friendlier, to find more stillness, etc.
Notice the resistance you feel when you take steps toward what you really want
Consider that your resistance is keeping you from what you really want, and that your resistance may be a way to feel some authority over the person from your past that over-controlled you
Reaffirm what it is you really want, value the supportive force of your own will, then act in alignment with your intention